I feel so empty right now.
Its as if all my emotions are bottled away from me.
The only one that is getting away from me is anger and sadness.
*Deep breath*
I am totally pissed off.
I was thinking about what people have said to me and about me behind my back.
From what i have put together. What they are saying is that there is something about me that just isnt real.
That i am never truly myself.
Two words for everyone who has said things about me (weither i know about it or not!): FUCK YOU!
I hate the human race.
They always have to push eachother down and bomb eachother and what not!
Its FUCKING RETARED!
Two things i wish that i could do:
1. Not be able to talk. Then maybe my teachers wouldnt hate me and maybe no one would be able to judge me about the things i say.
2. I aslo wish i were deaf so i couldnt hear all the terrible things people say to me or anybody else.
I hate myself.
Everything about me isnt enough.
I get bad grades.
Everyone thinks i am a poser.
Everyone says that i am diffrent now. (Diffrent from last year)
I keep secrets.
I am always stressed out.
I have so many people that i want to slotter right now. So very many people.
Not many people would be left living at school.
I hope in when i go to highschool that i go to a school no one else goes to. So i dont know anyone. There is only one person that i want to continue being friends with after i leave Noe.
I still feel sick. But this time... its in my head!
~Twisted Freak~
P.S I went to Hot Topic and got a Linkin Park shirt. Maybe i should take it back though. Someone may call me a poser or make fun of me!
"If you think i've changed look at yourself in the mirror. You may see a diffrence and trust me, this diffrence is killing your friends"
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